Cemetery

You keep telling yourself it's all going to be fine

but how long have you been wearing thin?

do you ever believe it?

You think of yourself as reckless

taking a walk to the cemetery

to look at the graves,

thinking

of all the funerals you could've cried in

but didn't attend.

How many versions of you have died?

I found you in the cemetery looking for who you used to be

tombstones as open books but you don't know how to read

thinking of all the wakes you skipped.

tell us about the day your father found you

digging a grave in the backyard of his house

you still haven't told us for whom it would have been

I always assumed you were trying to bury your feelings

at least I wanted to believe

just promise to go back and say you are sorry.

I know you left for good reasons

I just keep on looking for them

how many times can you visit a tomb? before you realize it's too late

they say it takes time

but how long?

seasons keep changing but your heart does not thaw.

I still visit your tomb from time to time

after all

it is the only place my heart is listened.